Not Having It Anymore, Im Fucking Biting Back

I'm Not Taking It Anymore You Wanna Fucking Have A Go At Me, FUCKING BRING IT ON!!.
I'm Sick Of The Bullshit, GOD YOU CAN SEND AS MANY DICKHEADS AS YOU WANT TO FUCK MY LIFE UP, BUT GUESS WHAT, I'M FUCKING FIGHTING BACK NOW!!. Don't Expect Me To Sit Here And Take It Anymore, I WILL NOT BE YOUR PERSONAL JOKE ANYMORE!!, Ill Be Fucking Damned If I'm Genna Let Any Other Guy Fucking Screw me Over, So Come On "God", Fucking Send Them My Way, Watch Me Send Them Back Fucking Crying, I'm Fucking Done With It All, No More, Ive Got Enough Troubles To Worry About, So You Know What, Fuck Being The "Fallen Angel", Meet The "Bitch From Hell" And She Bites Back, BITCHES!!. This Bitch Will Bite Back From Now On So Don't Fucking Mess With Her, And YES I Am Serious, Im Sick To Fucking Death, Of Being "Gods" Personal Joke Ive had To Fucking Deal With Soooooo Much Bullshit, And I Have Had ENOUGH!! Im Sick Of The Dickheads And The Cunts, Who Fucking Mess With My Head, Well I Say No More I Have Just Had Enough.

Look, I Know Some Of You May Think Im Just Some Messed Up Teenager Who Swears ALOT, But Please All I Ask Is That You Look At Everything I Write About, Through My Eyes Try And Feel The Pain I Feel As Im Writing About It, I Do So Much For Others Thier Pain Becomes My Own I Take So Much To Heart, People Just Dont Know What To Do With Me, Ive Been Sent To A Counsilor, Ive Spoken To Some Friends About It, Ive Even Said Some Prayers To "God" But Many Don't Know What They Can Do To Help Me, Many Just Think Talking It Out Helps But It Just Doesn't, I Know I May Have Said It Helped To You, If I Spoke To You About It, But Im Sorry It Just Doesn't You Gotta Realise Something, Talking About It, Makes Me Feel Helpless, Like I Cant Do Anything To Help Myself, Like Im Some Pathetic Personal Joke To God. I Dont Wanna Feel Like This, And No Just Cos I Wrote This Doesnt Mean Ive Reverted Back To Depressed Me, Im Still Genna Be The Old Me That Everyone Misses Cos THAT Me Is Who I Wanna Be, So You Know What This Whole Blog Is About Announcing My Frustration Making It Heard, Im Not Having It Anymore Im Genna Fucking Fight Back Now.

So As Many Nicknames Say On Msn:

THE BITCH IS BACK!!

Anyways Im Done, Im Sorry If Any Of You Get Offended By The Quotation Marks Around "Gods" Name, But Right Now, I Feel As Though There Is No "God."

Comment, But No Haters.

Peace. xx

Its Me - old me non depressed me

IM BACK!!! Old me is finally back, no more depression, or bad thoughts or cutting or anything, I dont know what happend, or how i did it, but its done im finally back to feeling like myself, the weight of the world, its been lifted well at least shared, now i dont have the need to scream, or being angry or depressed, i just feel like regular old me, the me i used to be before it all began, all the dating and cutting and depressing thoughts, its just ME!!.

As if things couldnt get any better, im smiling!!
im actually smiling again, and my eyes are wide open, to everything ive been missing, i dont know what i did, or what someone else did, but im happy im actualy happy again, its amazing this feeling is just, just ME!! hahaha its amazing to be able to say that again, its just ME!! haha i love it this feeling is amazing.

I cant believe it, this feeling is just indescribable, just amazing doesnt even cover it, i feel like me, back before all this bullshit dating, and all the depression, the cutting, the emo thoughts, the deep blogging issues, i just feel like me, the lil badass bitch, who would do anything for a bit of fun, no matter how much trouble came later, it was about the fun, the laughs, the entertainment, being a KID!, ive got it back, and im NOT losing it again.

OMG IM BACK!!!

anyways im done, peace, tc, comment but no haters.

peace. xx

um idk ill label it later

now playing - we made you - eminem

ok well what to write, life as we know it is fine it shall continue to grow and prosper (i think they mean the same thing but oh well) life will continue even if i made that mistake. Yes life will continue sadly leaving me behind, trapped, trapped like a mouse things go well for a while and i try to keep my mind clear and focused on happy thoughts. Till something happens, like offending my "brother" christian did not mean to do it but i was worried bout him.

now playing - please dont leave me - pink

I did not mean to offend him but the thought of losing someone i love to alcohol or drugs is just to hard to bare, the thought of losing him for a second time is something i dont want to think bout, cos as far as im concerend even though we arent related hes always genna be my big brother.

now playing - circus - britney spears

My frustration tonight is making me push away the ones i have become close to, i do not know why but everything has made me angry or moody i feel as though gaps are tearing me apart from those i hold close. I do not want this to happen but it is, it hurts me i wish to just lay down and die but no. No such luck i must live this torture they call life, it has many pains and horrors but the few in my life that have not been pushed away make it bearable.

now playing - breakeven - the script

Things are falling apart between me and him our arguements growing ever so mean and spiteful (i know my language on this isnt what it used to be) i wish i could take it all back the harsh words the stupid questions, and maybe even meeting him. His life may have been better without me, i guess we will never know now. As for his friend well his friend shall be rid of me soon if all goes to plan.

now playing - so what - pink

I am trying and hoping that i can hold on to those i love but no use, the more i try the more i fail therefore i should just give up maybe the ones i care for will just come back one day. If they truely were supposed to be with me they will come back into my life.



Im done

comment, no haters.

peace.xx

Stand Up For Him

A girl went to her friends house and she ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was asmall COMMUNITY and she lived only a few blocks away.

As she walked along under the bike trail Diane asked,'God to keep her safe from harm and danger'.When she reached the alley, which was a shortcut to her house,she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley shenoticed a man standing at the end as though he were waiting for her.

She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for 'God's protection'.Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and securitywrapped around her,she felt as though someone was walking with her.

When she reached the end of the alley, she walkedright past the man and arrived home safely.T he following day, she read in the newspaper thata young girl had been raped,in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there.

Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the factthat it could have been her, she began to weep.Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman,she decided to go to the police station.

She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story.The police asked her if she would be willing to look ata lineup to see if she could identify him.She agreed and immediately pointed out the manshe had seen in the alley the night before.

When the man was told he had been identified,he immediately broke down and confessed.The officer thanked Diane for her bravery andasked if there was anything they could do for her.She asked if they would ask the man one question.

Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her.When the policeman asked him, he answered,'Because she wasn't alone'.She had two tall men walking on either side of her.'

Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're not alone.(people) will not stand up for 'God'.......PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what'If you deny me in front of your friends,I shall deny you in front of my Father

''STAND UP FOR HIM''93% of people wont pass this on.... Will you be one of them???

Molestation

Even if it's just the tiniest part of it, it still leaves the person (victim) feeling like trash and nothing i repeat nothing can take that feeling away. In time i guess you learn to accept it but the only thing that doesnt make sense is the fact that the molester will almost never remember what hes done it pains me to say but i too have been molested it wasnt a full molestation but even being touched by someone you dont know and trust is a horrible feeling. It has left me feeling trashy and disgusting i feel unlike myself and sadly i have my molester to thank. There are ways to protect yourself yes, but in a real life situation they dont always help, i mean ive been doing karate for nearly 6 months now and even though its doesnt seem like much it was enough to show me how to protect myself. I guess i have part of myself to blame as i should have moved the minute he sat next to me i had a bad feeling about him butfor some strange reason i ignored my gut feeling and let it go sadly if i had just moved away and listened to that feeling i would have avoided that disaster all together. So i must say yes "It's My Fault" and i do take full responsibility for being in the wrong place at the wrong time but it is also my molesters fault as he obviously needs help i just wish that he could remember what he did this way he'd always have that bit of guilt if he could some how just remember that he had done that and screwed up someones life i would sleep better at night. I now understand why we children are told to be careful on the street and to not talk to strangers it's for our protection and our safety i just wish that i had been smart enough to wait inside my little sisters school instead of being the fool i was and waiting outside in an unsafe environment. Each night it does get better but i also feel like i will never be the same inside and i will always keep that image of his face in my head with those brown drug addicted eyes and that black rough looking hair and that horrible looking glare. I pray to god each night that this man shall have eternal damnation on his soul as i know mine shall never be the same.

Anyways im done

comment but no haters

and if something like this has happend to you

Please PLEASE contact me on x._liveloveburndie@hotmail.com

id love to talk to you as im sure i feel your pain

Peace xx

Please note: im crying while i type this so it may not make sense

Now listening to - Wes Carr - Feels Like Whoa

How do you cope when your sister of four years walks out of your life
today was her final day and i tried so hard not to cry so she wouldnt
of course i failed heck i even broke down crying during class thank god
i was sitting under the air conditioner i used that and the fact that i was
"sick" as an excuse for having red eyes and a runny nose. Shes walking
out of not just my life but our whole groups life of course she will still be
considered as part of the group but its not the same as having her there
it hurts so much and monday shall be worse as that will be the day the
day it all becomes real.

Now listening to - Maroon 5 Wake Up Call - EWW - dumb mtv

why is it the ones we love the most must leave why is it they must walk
out of your life why cant it be your enemies who leave you instead of the
ones you love it always has to be the ones you keep close to you heart
that leaves its just heartbreaking and saddening i guess you just have to
accept it and hope one day your lives will cross paths again of course what
if you dont want to accept it what then..?

Now listening to -Veronicas - Untouched

Why does god torture us so why must he send the ones we love away like
seriously it is preposterous why must we suffer just because the person
we loves parents must go just for work why cant they find work here where
they already live its just unbearable to rip to friends or "sisters" if you will
apart why must she go dont her parents see how heartbreaking it is for her
and for her friends..?

Now listening to - empire of the sun - walking on a dream

life is the worst and sometimes i think bout just giving up and letting it win
its not like anyone can stop me and now that my "sister" is going/gone how
am i supposed to smile again ive known her for FOUR YEARS dsnt tht mean
anything to her parents srsly why make her suffer by moving her then having
her have to go to a new school and make new friends just so they can have a job
why cant they get a job here its not that hard i mean COME ON PPL..?

Now listening to - empire of the sun - we are the people

anyways i have had enough of blogging i will probably write later but idk depends
if i can handle it write now so much shit has just overpowered my emotions and
without emotions i cannot write so ill write later MAYBE

but for now bye bye

Now listening to - T.I / Justin Timberlake - Dead and Gone

P.S this song FUCKING RULESSS!!!

Gouri

Gouri we are genna miss you so much bubba
all the fun times we have had these few years
its been the best. Getting in trouble and getting
out of it hahahaha best years ever please dont
cry when you read this just simply remember
all the good times we have all had together hahaha
like all the parties our group throws for each other
we cant really imagine you not at old C.M especially
when we graduate not having you there yr 10 and
yr 12 proms are genna be so horrible without you
there to make it fun we are all genna miss you so
much especially your insecent ramblings about
harry potter and edward cullen.
Bub we hate to see you go as you will be greatly
GREATLY missed by alot of people i know its genna
be hard on alot of people especially since everyone in
history elective relies on you to answer the questions
we dont know hahahaha we really wish you didnt have
to go but alas we know you dont have a choice maybe
all our paths will cross again one day we will miss you

Love

-Lexi
-Alison
-Rachel
-Kate
-Shivi
-Danni
-Kat
-Mono
-Berlina
-Mitchell
-Sadie
-Diana
-Nithua
-Rosie
-Rita
-Renee
-Christal
-Akushla

And so many more of us

WE LOVE YOU !!!

For the book 9

Dearest Nobody,

You left me feeling numb it's not the best feeling in
the world i hate it so much but i don't know how to
make myself feel better i dont know how to get out
of this slump why, why did you do this to me i hate
this feeling and yet when we were "together" i felt
this way also its like with or without you i feel lousy
and numb inside. That was then this is now and the
truth is Nobody i feel awsome so really all you have
done is give me a confidence boost around guys now
all i can do is flirt and enjoy myself which for me is
an amazing change and you know what thank you
its helped me so much in actual fact i think i may
have a new BF in mind which is awsome for me so
have fun with that girl your with now cos one day
your going to see me and realise you want me back
so enjoy your because i cant wait to deny you what
you will want later in life till then ill see you around.
NOT. heres to you Nobody and Thank you hahaha.


Always and Forever
Someone Elses

Lexi. xxxx

For the book 8

Thank you so much for being there

you's are always around and help me when im down or angry
its the best thing to have when you feel like your on you own
knowing you can reach out and they will be there is the best
feeling in the world i have no idea how many times ive lost it
or broke down crying or had one of "those" days but when i
look back i see that they have always been there i love them
for it and i owe them so much but i dont think i can ever ever
repay them the only thing i can do is do what they did for me
be there for them help them when they are down and love
them like my own brother or sister even though some will
leave or fade i see a few there in my future those are the ones
ill hang on to dearly i hope they will never leave me side i owe
them alot and i just want to say


THANK YOU GUYS SOO MUCH FOR BEING THERE ILY

xxxxxxxxxx

for the book 6

jealousy is a funny thing
especially when your ex
tries to make you jealous
by "pretending" to txt
thier new gf/bf but they
"accidentaly" send it to
you its funny how even
thought they want to
make you jealous the
way they go about it is
kinda sad as it really does
show that they still have
feelings for you which is
what they dont want you
to know and another thing
why would they keep your
number after you guys have
broken up.

to my ex Have Fun With Your Slut

Im Done xxxx

For the book 5

walking out like we dont matter
its not the best thing to see or
have done to you even if the one
walking out doesnt mean it it still
hurts you dont want them gone
but they dont have a choice its
hard to let them go and its hard
to stop remembering all the good
times youve had with them you
start to cry and think bout the
times when you thought you would
have them in your life forever you
realise how stupid it was to think
that they would never leave and
you realise how every moment
you guys spent together was all
that will be left when they are
gone you try not to cry and you try
to make them think your strong but
all you want to do is fall asleep and
never wake up or hide them so they
dont have to go its hard to let go but
i guess you have to trust yourself and
hope that one day you will see them again




bye gouri genna miss you heaps

ily bubba

xxxx

For the book

DEAREST NOBODY,

MY LIFES BEEN GREAT SINCE YOU
WALKED OUT IVE BEEN HAPPIER
AND MORE OUT THERE I GUESS IN
A WAY I SHOULD THANK YOU I
WOULD NEVER HAVE HAD THE GUTS
TO FLIRT WITH A GUY IF IT HADNT
HAVE BEEN FOR YOU BUT IN A WAY
ITS CHANGED ME PROBABLY FOR THE
WORST I DO NOT WISH THAT
THINGS DIDNT HAPPEN BUT THEN
AGAIN I DO IT KINDA CHANGED ME
AND MY LIFE EVEN THOUGH I WISH
IT HADNT I THANK YOU FOR
EVERYTHING AND NOTHING AS I
REALLY DO THINK IN TIME I WOULD
HAVE CHANGED ANYWAYS EVEN WITH
OUT YOUR HELP SO REALLY ALL
YOU DID WAS SPEED UP THE
PROCESS WHICH I DONT KNOW IF ITS A
GOOD THING BUT I GUESS WE WILL HAVE
TO WAIT AND FIND OUT WONT WE ??????


I THANK YOU

ALWAYS AND FOREVER YOURS


NOBODY

xxxxxxxxx

JSDNVIEWNVPEFRNVOUWNV[ORBGV[

SHUT HIM THE FUCK UP ALL HE DOES IS BE A FUCKING RETARD TO GET ON MY NERVES ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR THERE HER FUCKING GOES AGAIN BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH GOD SHUT UP FOR ONCE IN A FUCKING WHILE I JUST WANNA FUCKING KILL HIM SOMETIMES ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR WHY THE FUCK CANT HE SHUT UP FOR CHRIST SAKE.

ERRRRRRRRR AND NO U GUYS DONT NEED TO KNOW WHO HE IS (and no he isnt my bf)

ANYWAYS IM DONE

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How do we decide

HOW CAN YOU CHOOSE WHEN THE GUY YOU LIKE IS ALSO THE GUY UR BEST FREDN LIKES BUT TURNS OUT THE GUY YOU BOTH LIKE LIKES YOU BACK. BUT THE ONLY THING IS DEEP DOWN YOU DONT WANT HIM TO LIKE YOU YOU WANT HIM TO LIKE YOU FREND BUT YOU KNOW THTS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN BECAUSE SHES TOO SCARED TO TELL HIM HOW SHE FEELS AND YOUR OFF FLIRTING WITH HIM EVEN THGH YOU DONT MEAN TO YOU ARE ALREADY WITH SOMEONE BUT THERES SOMETHING BOUT HIM THAT MAKES YOU WANNA FORGET THE GUY YOUR WITH AND BE WITH HIM BUT YOU CANT COS YOU DONT WANT TO HURT THE GUY YOUR WITH NOW BUT THERES JUST SOMETHING ABOUT THE OTHER GUY THAT YOU CANT SEEM TO LET GO OF HES FUNNY SWEET AND TOTTALY HOT

SO MY QUESTION IS WHAT DO YOU DO DO YOU LET YOUR FREND GO FOR HIM OR DO YOU CONTINUE FLIRTING WITH HIM EVEN THGH SHE REALLY LIKES HIM ??

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peace xx

For Nicholas (even though you will never see it)

To my Dearest Nicholas

i have not been totally honest with you i have told you i love you but the truth is i dont know if i do i want to but i feel if i open my heart to you it will only give you a chance to break it i dont know wether or not to trust you i really want to but i met you through a bad crowd i want to believe you arent like the rest of your group but i dnt know i just cant and i dont know why and it hurts cos i really do want to hurt you but it feels as though i already have the whole world resting on my shoulders and i just cant handle a relationship at the moment but of course i culd never tell you this and of course you will never know as you will never read this even thgough a small part of me really wishes you would i just cant do this anymore every day i get closer and closer to suicide.

Funny thing is the only thing keeping me alive is (besides my frends) nick but whats wierd is it isnt you nick its nick from dubbo its not that i like him or anything its just i can relate to him amd he always manages to talk me out of it and i love him (as a mate) for it if it werent for him my dear nicholas you wuld not have me right now so i believe we both owe him a big thank you

so Nick (from dubbo) I THANK YOU SOOO VERY MUCH FOR SAVING MY LIFE ON MORE THEN ONE OCCASION ily xx

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peace xx

Just For Sayesha

Lols dis is just for sayesha

ok lets see

Plot: true story (our group)

Year 8 - our group was great there was sayesha, gouri, rachel, me, alimason, shivi, kat, kate, sorcha, nikki, mitchel, nikki and berlina everything was great we were all having a great time together the trouble we got into hahahaha what a year and not to mention wilson and hating on brenna and all them yea life was good we always had something to laugh about like owesofagus (inside joke) not to mention laughing at molyneaux yea life was so fun in the year 2008.

Year 9 - Life is fucked up sayesha is gone and so many other people are moving away its depressing we miss so many people especially sayesha. why cant things be like they were in year 8 it was so much better then and now its all screwed up its less fun we need the whole group there for it to be fun its like we are missing partof our groups soul i know it sounds weird but its how i feel and i am pretty sure its how everyone in our group feels

Year 10, 11 and 12 - Life wont be the same especially if we dont ALL graduate together it will be as though there is nothing to celebrate it isnt really a graduation if our whole group isnt there i hate tht not everyone is there it doesnt feel like school anymore it feels like our whole group is parting ways and it scares me cos i dont want to lose any of my mates and i definetly dnt want another frendship to go down in flames.


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Everything is making me so angry WHY

everything is making me so angry i hate it even being angry is making
me angry im sick of iteven the tiniest thing makes me angry i dnt want
to be angry anymore heck i dnt even know why im angry these days i
just have all this rage and for some reason its making me tired and
stressedi dnt want to be angry i have too much to be happy about like
srsly i have an awsome BF amazing friends an awsome family and just
a great life but for some strange reason im angry all the time i dnt want
to be angry cos quiet frankly im sick of it im tired all the time and its just
not easy i hate being angry cos i take it out on the wrong people and i dont
mean to cos i really love them especially my bf (nicholas) and my friends
(too many to name) btw i want to apologise to any of those i have taken
my anger out on.

anyways comment but no haters

to my mates ily all xxxx

and to my bf

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH xxx

peace xx

Written Dear nobody

DEAR NOBODY,

Do you remember when we first met that day was so random,
you were with her that was one of the things that for some
reason angered me.

Do you remember the break up she cut you so deep and for
some reason when you told me it cut me so deep too, it
infuriated me how she could hurt you so easily without a single
care for how much it would hurt you.

Do you remember the new girl 'B' you took her out just that one
time you had no feelings for her, little did you know she liked you,
as you were too busy thinking of me.

Do you remember the day when you asked me to be your girl you
caught me off guard it was so sudden, my heart skipped a beat i
had no idea what to say, my hands froze and my mind went blank,
i was finally able to reply, three minutes later, i said i would think
about it.

Do you remember our conversation the one where i told you i would
be your girl you were so happy and surprised, you thought for sure i
was going to say no it was the funniest day ever that day.

Do you remember yesterday i told you i was really sick and you were
so worried you told me to go to bed so i could get better sooner as you
did not want me missing out on school or the fete it was a bad day.

Do you remember today when you just could not stop talking bout 'B'
it angered me and frustrated me so much your always on about how
much you hate her, yet you could not stop, it amazed me you say you
can't stand her yet I'm starting to think you like her more then you let
on. Am I right is it true ?.

So my dear nobody I have two remaining questions for you and here they are:

1. Are you with me cos u love me
2. Do you still have feelings for 'B' even though you don't want to admit
it ?

Dear nobody even though I do not expect a reply I just felt i had to write
this not for my sake or for yours, But for OUR sake.

JUST FOR YOU

Always And Forever Yours


*~Nobody~* <3

My Dear Nobody Letter

Dear Nobody,

why must you always assume that I'm something I'm not
it frustrates me it enrages me it makes me feel as though
the real me isn't good enough i know you might not mean
to do it but its how i feel i need to know that you accept me
the way i am not as who you think i am or who you want me
to be why must i change just to please you?
I don't wish to be someone I'm not i just wanna be me and if
you cant accept me for who i am then how do i know its me you
really want to be with and not someone else. You always talk
about her and how annoying she is but it just makes me think
you like her more then you let on am i right is it true ?

or will you continue to deny it as you want to keep your promise
or could it be that you wish to make a fool of me and my heart??

i don't know who will read this but let me tell you this one thing
i have seen what love can do to you and this letter is for no one in
particular i just felt as though it were time to write my own letter

My Own Dear Nobody





comment but no haters alright

peace xx

NEED SOMETHING POSITIVE ON HERE

LMAO

WELL SINCE I NEED SOMETHING POSITIVE LETS TLK BOUT SCIENCE LAST YEAR LET ME START OFF WITH

OWESOFAGUS

LMAO IF U WERE MY MATE LAST YR U WILL KNOW WHAT THT MEANS

MAN SCIENCE WAS THE FUNNIEST CLASS EVER LAST YEAR MOLYNEAUX REALLY NEEDS TO LEARN TO BE NICE

AND FAST

BEFORE I KNOCK HER OUT

*mind interupts "hey this is supposed to be positive"*

LOLS RIGHT ANYWAYS

LMAO OWESOFAGUS WAS JUST ONE OF THE FUNNIEST MOMENTS EVER ANOTHER WULD BE ASHLEIGH AND HER SPIDERS THT WAS HEAPS FUNNY

LOLS BUT I LUV HER SHES AWSOME

ANOTHER WULD BE ME ND ALI SITTING NEXT TO EACH OTHER SINCE SHES LEFT HANDED ND IM RIGHT HANDED WE ALWAYS FOUGHT OVER SPACE WHEN WE WERE WRITING MAN WHAT A FUNNY TIME THT WAS

ANOTHER WAS PULLING FACES AT MOLYNEAUX WHEN SHE WASNT LOOKING AND CAITLIN AND SHIVI KICKING THE BACK OF MY CHAIR EVERY 5 SECONDS LMAO THT WAS SOOOOOOOO GAY AND THEN THERE WAS THE CONSTANT AND I MEAN CONSTANT CHATTER AND PLANS ON WHAT WE WERE GENNA DO TO MOLYNEAUX AFTER YEAR 12 (which btw still goes on) LMAO NOT THT SHE WILL EVER KNOW ;)

ANYWAYS THTS ALL I CNT THINK OF SO YEA

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but no haters

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HIM

he says he loves you

but how is it he can use the term so easily ?

especially when u havent even said it once

you start to like him thgh but ur not sure cos u dnt want you heart
to be broken he promises he will never hurt you but its not like he
will mean to if things go wrong

you hope things go well and that your with him for a long time but
you know deep down somethings genna change and your genna end
up breaking up and that promise he made just gets broken

how do you even know he will keep his promise how do you know he
means any of it are you supposed to just trust him ?
how do you do that when your instinct is so strongly against him ?

anyways thats it i cnt be bothered writing anymore but hey

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peace xx

How Do I Manage

family, schoolwork, school, bitches, mates, bf nd life

how do we manage

how am i supposed to manage im starting to realize being in a relationship with someone messes up
your life cos you feel as thgh u need to do whatever you can to please them so much thgh tht u end up changing your whole life just for them i dnt want to do this and im not ready to im scared tht if i say something it will fuck up our relationship not only as bf n gf but as frends as well.

i dnt wanna fuck up another frendship just cos my lifes fucked up

i feel like ill let him down if i end it

but i also feel like im letting myself down if i dnt

im sick to death of living this life

i only have one way out

do i take it will

be my next

question?

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Emo-Ish (How im thinking n feeling right now)

cut, dnt cut, cut, dnt cut ??

sitting in bed with a knife to my wrist

wondering if it will hurt and take away

the numb feeling tht seems to have

come and over taken me.

will the blood i bleed show me im human?

or must i be like everyone else to be human ?

my life isnt perfect heck its so fucking bitchy

the only good thing is all my frends tht are in it

id hate to lose them but my lifes so fucked up

im wondering will i ever be able to fix my life or


is it broken beyond repair ?




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STOP CALLING US EMO

JUST COS WE LIKE FUCKING SCREAMO HEADBANGING HEAVY METAL OR PUNK
MUSIC DSNT MEAN WE ARE FUCKING EMOS IT JUST MEANS WE LIKE DIFFERENT
TYPES OF MUSIC DNT JUDGE US ON OUR STYLE OR APPEARANCES JUDGE US BY
OUR PERSONALITY YOU DICKFUCKS JEEZ WE DNT NEED TO BE JUDGED AND YOU
SHULDNT BE JUDGING US ANYWAYS WHO GIVES YOU THE GODDAMNED RIGHT TO SAY WHAT WE ARE BTFW EMO IS A FUCKING STYLE NOT A STEREOTYPE
IM A FULL DUMBARSE AND I KNOW THT SO STOP JUDGING ME ND EVERYONE ELSE LIKE ME

COS FOR ALL YOU KNOW WE COULD BE PRETTY AWSOME PPL

TAKE THE TIME TO GET TO KNOW US HECK LISTEN TO SOME OF OUR MUSIC ONCE IN A WHILE YOU MIGHT FIND YOU LIKE IT TOO

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TORN BETWEEN TWO

new one, old one, new one , old one

which one, which one, why is life full of hard decisions you end up likeing both

but how do you choose

the new ones awsome but the old ones special its like your being forced to choose

but i dnt wanna choose why do we have to, why do I have to ?

thinking bout my life makes me wonder have i made the right decisions?

or have i screwed tht up as well why does life have all these twists nd turns?

and then theres the two of 'them' which one do you choose the one youve felt more for

or the one who feels more for you ?

life is srsly f*cked up not sure what to do do i choose the old one or the new ?

anyways im done

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LMAO RAMBLINGS ND MATES

school = boring
teachers = half half
students = half half
mates = fucking awsome
schoolwork = bullshit
life = cant complain (yet)
me = MEH funny I GUESS
ash = lols my dumbarse
ali = lols my concience
nik = lols my funny mate
gouri = my sister
sorcha = lmao my crazy awsome mate
rach = my btr lols (inside joke with rachel)
shivi = lols random funny mate
mitchell = random bad infulence mate
kate = lmao my funny frend who ALWAYS comments on everything
sayesha = My funny frend who is stuck in india for all and eternity i will save you one day dw

nd yea those r my ramblings and what my mates are like to me

LOVE EM ALL

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2008

LMAO FUNNIEST BEST YEAR OF MY FUCKING LIFE (so far) AND BESIDES MOLYNEAUX BUT OTHER THEN THAT IT WAS AN AWSOME YEAR I MADE SOME AWSOME NEW MATES (love u all - ali, ash, nik, suka, gouri, kate, shivi nd SO MANY OTHERS . AND NOT TO MENTION THE TEACHERS R...O...F...L..M..A..O THEY R SO GAY BUT SOME WERE AIGHT LIKE MR B FOR ART AND PROBABLY SOME OTHER TEACHERS I JUST CNT REMEMBER AT THE MOMENT. AND OF COURSE U CNT FORGET ALL THE TROUBLE I CAUSED AND GOT INTO LMAO BTW I OWE THE BIGGEST THNX TO ALL MY MATES WHO WERE THERE TO HELP ME WHEN I GOT INTO FIGHTS WITH PPL AND AN EXTRA BIG THNX TO ALISON FOR HELPING ME SO MUCH AND FOR TALKING ME OUT OF A FEW THINGS WONT NAME THEM BUT YEA AND OH HOW COULD I FORGET THE AWSEOME WORK (not so awsome) ACTUALLY IT WAS SHIT BUT IT WAS FUNNY LMAO WE ALWAYS FOUND SOMETHING TO LAUGH AT ESPECIALLY IN SCIENCE (owesofagus - inside joke) LMAO ANYWAYS THTS ALL

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GOD/RELIGION

NOTE: IM NOT DISSING ANY RELGIONS ITS JUST MY VIEW

GOD ??

hw do we know hes real ??(and dnt say the bible for christ sake) cos we dnt know who wrote it it culd have just been some crackpot making up stories ???

exactly

and whats with all the other religion they r all BASICALLY the same rnt they ??

and i do say basically they might have lil bits changed but its really all the same only one might have more gods or less

and again how do we know thses religions are true ??

no one knows and its crazy cos u might spend ur whole life believeing finally die and not come back as an animal or not go to heaven but instead end up in a hole rotting away with worms eating at you or ur ashes spread all across the dirt or ocean or wherever

if someone could PROVE to me tht god or jesuse is real i will delete this blog but until then it stays

anyways im done

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MAKE IT STOP

make it stop pls make it stop

these r the words i constantly think of during class

why might you ask cos its boring f*cking b*llsh*t

thts why i mean cnt class ever be fun JUST ONCE

heck the only class thts fun is ART

but thts cos its being creative like W.......T.......F

cnt any other class be fun like i know we have to learn this sh*t but cnt the teachers try to make it fun at the same time like it wont kill them unless they have vowed to never be fun again but if u ask me thts just going a bit crazy, now maybe im overreacting but maybe im not who knows but srsly ask ANY student tht dsnt like school (which is EVERY student) and they will tell you tht the teachers are as dull as a stick NOT EVEN you can play with a stick which is really sad for the teachers

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THAT PERSON

OMG someone kill me there is this certain "person" whom i do not wish to name but i dnt think this person cant take a hint when they get it and it really annoys me then theres those who say that this certain "person" isnt so bad but trust me sometimes this person can eb so bad you just wanna shoot them

so my question is

how do u get them to take a god damn fucking hint ??

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GUYS AND SPEEDING

W...T...F we have these guy driving up and down our street 24/7 like dnt they watch the speeding noone things big of u add jeez ppl who speed (guys) having fucking puny dicks and thats tht like stop it its fucking gay not cool and...................... there they go again i feel like fucking shooting them its so fucking rediculous

is there anything to make them stop jeez

besides killing them or praying they crash which is mean i know but hey a girl can hope cant she ??
ddnt think so but meh im genna pary just in case maybe ill get lucky and a miracle will happen

doubt it but theres no harm in trying

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STEREOTYPING BULLSHIT

STEREOTYPING it fucking pisses me off like what gives others the right to fucking judge someone before they get to know them, its fucking ridiculous i fucking hate it i have seen so many stereotypers and what gets me the most is EVERYONE in some point in thier life has stereotyped and i will admit even i have i did it to a person and i hurt them but now tht person is one of my best mates and i am so sorry for doing it cos me and this person (i wont mention her name) have so much fun together and i feel so bad for judging her before i knew her but she forgives me and thts a good thing.

But seriously people have gotta stop hating on each other its fucking up our world

Get to know someone before u judge them cos u might make a new frend rather then ANOTHER enemy

anyways thts all i got to say

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LIFE

have u ever noticed how life has a tendency to fuck you over ??
well i have my life has been turned upside down more then once
and its fucking ridiculous like seriously dont you ever just get
tired of it ?

i do and i think its rediculous how people say "yea life's what you make it
enjoy it you know" but its not like seriously wake up people we are no longer in
control of our lives like come on we dont get to choose anything i mean
we dont get to choose when we die and we certainly dont get to choose
how i mean thats left up to "god" and like seriously how do we even know
this "god" person is real like i know theres the bible but does anyone have
any proof that the bible is real and that its not created buy
some crazy nut job ? yea i didnt think so

well thats all i got to say on the matter

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SCHOOL/PARENTS

school=BORING am i right ??

course i am its school the only people who like it r the ones who r good at it
you know i am right dont try and argue with me cos u know i am right lols
but seriously i dnt fink any kid in the whole world likes school its just one of
thos things you know like parents send you there cos they need some time
to be alone but seriosuly youd think they would consider the fact that school is
evil seeing as how they went there themselves and probably hated it to so why
send us there its not fair like i know they had to suffer but why make your kids
suffer as well ??

lols i thght they were supposed to protect us from that kinda shit you know but
really they only had us cos they needed someone to do the chores for them but
who really knows eh ??

Flirting

Flirting its one of those things i dnt understand im sure others besides myself dont understand how flirting works like yea its easy but how do we tell if a guy/girl is actually flirting with us and not just having a conversation ???
wats the difference between a conversation and a conversation tht involves flirting ?
why cnt there just be the conversations why does there HAVE to be flirting involved ?
i dnt think there is an answer cos really i think ur supposed to just know these things. But what if we didnt know then what ??
i mean we cant just go our whole lives flirting and not know we are doing it, can we ?