Molestation

Even if it's just the tiniest part of it, it still leaves the person (victim) feeling like trash and nothing i repeat nothing can take that feeling away. In time i guess you learn to accept it but the only thing that doesnt make sense is the fact that the molester will almost never remember what hes done it pains me to say but i too have been molested it wasnt a full molestation but even being touched by someone you dont know and trust is a horrible feeling. It has left me feeling trashy and disgusting i feel unlike myself and sadly i have my molester to thank. There are ways to protect yourself yes, but in a real life situation they dont always help, i mean ive been doing karate for nearly 6 months now and even though its doesnt seem like much it was enough to show me how to protect myself. I guess i have part of myself to blame as i should have moved the minute he sat next to me i had a bad feeling about him butfor some strange reason i ignored my gut feeling and let it go sadly if i had just moved away and listened to that feeling i would have avoided that disaster all together. So i must say yes "It's My Fault" and i do take full responsibility for being in the wrong place at the wrong time but it is also my molesters fault as he obviously needs help i just wish that he could remember what he did this way he'd always have that bit of guilt if he could some how just remember that he had done that and screwed up someones life i would sleep better at night. I now understand why we children are told to be careful on the street and to not talk to strangers it's for our protection and our safety i just wish that i had been smart enough to wait inside my little sisters school instead of being the fool i was and waiting outside in an unsafe environment. Each night it does get better but i also feel like i will never be the same inside and i will always keep that image of his face in my head with those brown drug addicted eyes and that black rough looking hair and that horrible looking glare. I pray to god each night that this man shall have eternal damnation on his soul as i know mine shall never be the same.

Anyways im done

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and if something like this has happend to you

Please PLEASE contact me on x._liveloveburndie@hotmail.com

id love to talk to you as im sure i feel your pain

Peace xx