For the book 9

Dearest Nobody,

You left me feeling numb it's not the best feeling in
the world i hate it so much but i don't know how to
make myself feel better i dont know how to get out
of this slump why, why did you do this to me i hate
this feeling and yet when we were "together" i felt
this way also its like with or without you i feel lousy
and numb inside. That was then this is now and the
truth is Nobody i feel awsome so really all you have
done is give me a confidence boost around guys now
all i can do is flirt and enjoy myself which for me is
an amazing change and you know what thank you
its helped me so much in actual fact i think i may
have a new BF in mind which is awsome for me so
have fun with that girl your with now cos one day
your going to see me and realise you want me back
so enjoy your because i cant wait to deny you what
you will want later in life till then ill see you around.
NOT. heres to you Nobody and Thank you hahaha.


Always and Forever
Someone Elses

Lexi. xxxx

For the book 8

Thank you so much for being there

you's are always around and help me when im down or angry
its the best thing to have when you feel like your on you own
knowing you can reach out and they will be there is the best
feeling in the world i have no idea how many times ive lost it
or broke down crying or had one of "those" days but when i
look back i see that they have always been there i love them
for it and i owe them so much but i dont think i can ever ever
repay them the only thing i can do is do what they did for me
be there for them help them when they are down and love
them like my own brother or sister even though some will
leave or fade i see a few there in my future those are the ones
ill hang on to dearly i hope they will never leave me side i owe
them alot and i just want to say


THANK YOU GUYS SOO MUCH FOR BEING THERE ILY

xxxxxxxxxx

for the book 6

jealousy is a funny thing
especially when your ex
tries to make you jealous
by "pretending" to txt
thier new gf/bf but they
"accidentaly" send it to
you its funny how even
thought they want to
make you jealous the
way they go about it is
kinda sad as it really does
show that they still have
feelings for you which is
what they dont want you
to know and another thing
why would they keep your
number after you guys have
broken up.

to my ex Have Fun With Your Slut

Im Done xxxx

For the book 5

walking out like we dont matter
its not the best thing to see or
have done to you even if the one
walking out doesnt mean it it still
hurts you dont want them gone
but they dont have a choice its
hard to let them go and its hard
to stop remembering all the good
times youve had with them you
start to cry and think bout the
times when you thought you would
have them in your life forever you
realise how stupid it was to think
that they would never leave and
you realise how every moment
you guys spent together was all
that will be left when they are
gone you try not to cry and you try
to make them think your strong but
all you want to do is fall asleep and
never wake up or hide them so they
dont have to go its hard to let go but
i guess you have to trust yourself and
hope that one day you will see them again




bye gouri genna miss you heaps

ily bubba

xxxx

For the book

DEAREST NOBODY,

MY LIFES BEEN GREAT SINCE YOU
WALKED OUT IVE BEEN HAPPIER
AND MORE OUT THERE I GUESS IN
A WAY I SHOULD THANK YOU I
WOULD NEVER HAVE HAD THE GUTS
TO FLIRT WITH A GUY IF IT HADNT
HAVE BEEN FOR YOU BUT IN A WAY
ITS CHANGED ME PROBABLY FOR THE
WORST I DO NOT WISH THAT
THINGS DIDNT HAPPEN BUT THEN
AGAIN I DO IT KINDA CHANGED ME
AND MY LIFE EVEN THOUGH I WISH
IT HADNT I THANK YOU FOR
EVERYTHING AND NOTHING AS I
REALLY DO THINK IN TIME I WOULD
HAVE CHANGED ANYWAYS EVEN WITH
OUT YOUR HELP SO REALLY ALL
YOU DID WAS SPEED UP THE
PROCESS WHICH I DONT KNOW IF ITS A
GOOD THING BUT I GUESS WE WILL HAVE
TO WAIT AND FIND OUT WONT WE ??????


I THANK YOU

ALWAYS AND FOREVER YOURS


NOBODY

xxxxxxxxx

JSDNVIEWNVPEFRNVOUWNV[ORBGV[

SHUT HIM THE FUCK UP ALL HE DOES IS BE A FUCKING RETARD TO GET ON MY NERVES ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR THERE HER FUCKING GOES AGAIN BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH GOD SHUT UP FOR ONCE IN A FUCKING WHILE I JUST WANNA FUCKING KILL HIM SOMETIMES ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR WHY THE FUCK CANT HE SHUT UP FOR CHRIST SAKE.

ERRRRRRRRR AND NO U GUYS DONT NEED TO KNOW WHO HE IS (and no he isnt my bf)

ANYWAYS IM DONE

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How do we decide

HOW CAN YOU CHOOSE WHEN THE GUY YOU LIKE IS ALSO THE GUY UR BEST FREDN LIKES BUT TURNS OUT THE GUY YOU BOTH LIKE LIKES YOU BACK. BUT THE ONLY THING IS DEEP DOWN YOU DONT WANT HIM TO LIKE YOU YOU WANT HIM TO LIKE YOU FREND BUT YOU KNOW THTS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN BECAUSE SHES TOO SCARED TO TELL HIM HOW SHE FEELS AND YOUR OFF FLIRTING WITH HIM EVEN THGH YOU DONT MEAN TO YOU ARE ALREADY WITH SOMEONE BUT THERES SOMETHING BOUT HIM THAT MAKES YOU WANNA FORGET THE GUY YOUR WITH AND BE WITH HIM BUT YOU CANT COS YOU DONT WANT TO HURT THE GUY YOUR WITH NOW BUT THERES JUST SOMETHING ABOUT THE OTHER GUY THAT YOU CANT SEEM TO LET GO OF HES FUNNY SWEET AND TOTTALY HOT

SO MY QUESTION IS WHAT DO YOU DO DO YOU LET YOUR FREND GO FOR HIM OR DO YOU CONTINUE FLIRTING WITH HIM EVEN THGH SHE REALLY LIKES HIM ??

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For Nicholas (even though you will never see it)

To my Dearest Nicholas

i have not been totally honest with you i have told you i love you but the truth is i dont know if i do i want to but i feel if i open my heart to you it will only give you a chance to break it i dont know wether or not to trust you i really want to but i met you through a bad crowd i want to believe you arent like the rest of your group but i dnt know i just cant and i dont know why and it hurts cos i really do want to hurt you but it feels as though i already have the whole world resting on my shoulders and i just cant handle a relationship at the moment but of course i culd never tell you this and of course you will never know as you will never read this even thgough a small part of me really wishes you would i just cant do this anymore every day i get closer and closer to suicide.

Funny thing is the only thing keeping me alive is (besides my frends) nick but whats wierd is it isnt you nick its nick from dubbo its not that i like him or anything its just i can relate to him amd he always manages to talk me out of it and i love him (as a mate) for it if it werent for him my dear nicholas you wuld not have me right now so i believe we both owe him a big thank you

so Nick (from dubbo) I THANK YOU SOOO VERY MUCH FOR SAVING MY LIFE ON MORE THEN ONE OCCASION ily xx

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Just For Sayesha

Lols dis is just for sayesha

ok lets see

Plot: true story (our group)

Year 8 - our group was great there was sayesha, gouri, rachel, me, alimason, shivi, kat, kate, sorcha, nikki, mitchel, nikki and berlina everything was great we were all having a great time together the trouble we got into hahahaha what a year and not to mention wilson and hating on brenna and all them yea life was good we always had something to laugh about like owesofagus (inside joke) not to mention laughing at molyneaux yea life was so fun in the year 2008.

Year 9 - Life is fucked up sayesha is gone and so many other people are moving away its depressing we miss so many people especially sayesha. why cant things be like they were in year 8 it was so much better then and now its all screwed up its less fun we need the whole group there for it to be fun its like we are missing partof our groups soul i know it sounds weird but its how i feel and i am pretty sure its how everyone in our group feels

Year 10, 11 and 12 - Life wont be the same especially if we dont ALL graduate together it will be as though there is nothing to celebrate it isnt really a graduation if our whole group isnt there i hate tht not everyone is there it doesnt feel like school anymore it feels like our whole group is parting ways and it scares me cos i dont want to lose any of my mates and i definetly dnt want another frendship to go down in flames.


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Everything is making me so angry WHY

everything is making me so angry i hate it even being angry is making
me angry im sick of iteven the tiniest thing makes me angry i dnt want
to be angry anymore heck i dnt even know why im angry these days i
just have all this rage and for some reason its making me tired and
stressedi dnt want to be angry i have too much to be happy about like
srsly i have an awsome BF amazing friends an awsome family and just
a great life but for some strange reason im angry all the time i dnt want
to be angry cos quiet frankly im sick of it im tired all the time and its just
not easy i hate being angry cos i take it out on the wrong people and i dont
mean to cos i really love them especially my bf (nicholas) and my friends
(too many to name) btw i want to apologise to any of those i have taken
my anger out on.

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to my mates ily all xxxx

and to my bf

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH xxx

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Written Dear nobody

DEAR NOBODY,

Do you remember when we first met that day was so random,
you were with her that was one of the things that for some
reason angered me.

Do you remember the break up she cut you so deep and for
some reason when you told me it cut me so deep too, it
infuriated me how she could hurt you so easily without a single
care for how much it would hurt you.

Do you remember the new girl 'B' you took her out just that one
time you had no feelings for her, little did you know she liked you,
as you were too busy thinking of me.

Do you remember the day when you asked me to be your girl you
caught me off guard it was so sudden, my heart skipped a beat i
had no idea what to say, my hands froze and my mind went blank,
i was finally able to reply, three minutes later, i said i would think
about it.

Do you remember our conversation the one where i told you i would
be your girl you were so happy and surprised, you thought for sure i
was going to say no it was the funniest day ever that day.

Do you remember yesterday i told you i was really sick and you were
so worried you told me to go to bed so i could get better sooner as you
did not want me missing out on school or the fete it was a bad day.

Do you remember today when you just could not stop talking bout 'B'
it angered me and frustrated me so much your always on about how
much you hate her, yet you could not stop, it amazed me you say you
can't stand her yet I'm starting to think you like her more then you let
on. Am I right is it true ?.

So my dear nobody I have two remaining questions for you and here they are:

1. Are you with me cos u love me
2. Do you still have feelings for 'B' even though you don't want to admit
it ?

Dear nobody even though I do not expect a reply I just felt i had to write
this not for my sake or for yours, But for OUR sake.

JUST FOR YOU

Always And Forever Yours


*~Nobody~* <3

My Dear Nobody Letter

Dear Nobody,

why must you always assume that I'm something I'm not
it frustrates me it enrages me it makes me feel as though
the real me isn't good enough i know you might not mean
to do it but its how i feel i need to know that you accept me
the way i am not as who you think i am or who you want me
to be why must i change just to please you?
I don't wish to be someone I'm not i just wanna be me and if
you cant accept me for who i am then how do i know its me you
really want to be with and not someone else. You always talk
about her and how annoying she is but it just makes me think
you like her more then you let on am i right is it true ?

or will you continue to deny it as you want to keep your promise
or could it be that you wish to make a fool of me and my heart??

i don't know who will read this but let me tell you this one thing
i have seen what love can do to you and this letter is for no one in
particular i just felt as though it were time to write my own letter

My Own Dear Nobody





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NEED SOMETHING POSITIVE ON HERE

LMAO

WELL SINCE I NEED SOMETHING POSITIVE LETS TLK BOUT SCIENCE LAST YEAR LET ME START OFF WITH

OWESOFAGUS

LMAO IF U WERE MY MATE LAST YR U WILL KNOW WHAT THT MEANS

MAN SCIENCE WAS THE FUNNIEST CLASS EVER LAST YEAR MOLYNEAUX REALLY NEEDS TO LEARN TO BE NICE

AND FAST

BEFORE I KNOCK HER OUT

*mind interupts "hey this is supposed to be positive"*

LOLS RIGHT ANYWAYS

LMAO OWESOFAGUS WAS JUST ONE OF THE FUNNIEST MOMENTS EVER ANOTHER WULD BE ASHLEIGH AND HER SPIDERS THT WAS HEAPS FUNNY

LOLS BUT I LUV HER SHES AWSOME

ANOTHER WULD BE ME ND ALI SITTING NEXT TO EACH OTHER SINCE SHES LEFT HANDED ND IM RIGHT HANDED WE ALWAYS FOUGHT OVER SPACE WHEN WE WERE WRITING MAN WHAT A FUNNY TIME THT WAS

ANOTHER WAS PULLING FACES AT MOLYNEAUX WHEN SHE WASNT LOOKING AND CAITLIN AND SHIVI KICKING THE BACK OF MY CHAIR EVERY 5 SECONDS LMAO THT WAS SOOOOOOOO GAY AND THEN THERE WAS THE CONSTANT AND I MEAN CONSTANT CHATTER AND PLANS ON WHAT WE WERE GENNA DO TO MOLYNEAUX AFTER YEAR 12 (which btw still goes on) LMAO NOT THT SHE WILL EVER KNOW ;)

ANYWAYS THTS ALL I CNT THINK OF SO YEA

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HIM

he says he loves you

but how is it he can use the term so easily ?

especially when u havent even said it once

you start to like him thgh but ur not sure cos u dnt want you heart
to be broken he promises he will never hurt you but its not like he
will mean to if things go wrong

you hope things go well and that your with him for a long time but
you know deep down somethings genna change and your genna end
up breaking up and that promise he made just gets broken

how do you even know he will keep his promise how do you know he
means any of it are you supposed to just trust him ?
how do you do that when your instinct is so strongly against him ?

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How Do I Manage

family, schoolwork, school, bitches, mates, bf nd life

how do we manage

how am i supposed to manage im starting to realize being in a relationship with someone messes up
your life cos you feel as thgh u need to do whatever you can to please them so much thgh tht u end up changing your whole life just for them i dnt want to do this and im not ready to im scared tht if i say something it will fuck up our relationship not only as bf n gf but as frends as well.

i dnt wanna fuck up another frendship just cos my lifes fucked up

i feel like ill let him down if i end it

but i also feel like im letting myself down if i dnt

im sick to death of living this life

i only have one way out

do i take it will

be my next

question?

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Emo-Ish (How im thinking n feeling right now)

cut, dnt cut, cut, dnt cut ??

sitting in bed with a knife to my wrist

wondering if it will hurt and take away

the numb feeling tht seems to have

come and over taken me.

will the blood i bleed show me im human?

or must i be like everyone else to be human ?

my life isnt perfect heck its so fucking bitchy

the only good thing is all my frends tht are in it

id hate to lose them but my lifes so fucked up

im wondering will i ever be able to fix my life or


is it broken beyond repair ?




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STOP CALLING US EMO

JUST COS WE LIKE FUCKING SCREAMO HEADBANGING HEAVY METAL OR PUNK
MUSIC DSNT MEAN WE ARE FUCKING EMOS IT JUST MEANS WE LIKE DIFFERENT
TYPES OF MUSIC DNT JUDGE US ON OUR STYLE OR APPEARANCES JUDGE US BY
OUR PERSONALITY YOU DICKFUCKS JEEZ WE DNT NEED TO BE JUDGED AND YOU
SHULDNT BE JUDGING US ANYWAYS WHO GIVES YOU THE GODDAMNED RIGHT TO SAY WHAT WE ARE BTFW EMO IS A FUCKING STYLE NOT A STEREOTYPE
IM A FULL DUMBARSE AND I KNOW THT SO STOP JUDGING ME ND EVERYONE ELSE LIKE ME

COS FOR ALL YOU KNOW WE COULD BE PRETTY AWSOME PPL

TAKE THE TIME TO GET TO KNOW US HECK LISTEN TO SOME OF OUR MUSIC ONCE IN A WHILE YOU MIGHT FIND YOU LIKE IT TOO

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