Please note: im crying while i type this so it may not make sense

Now listening to - Wes Carr - Feels Like Whoa

How do you cope when your sister of four years walks out of your life
today was her final day and i tried so hard not to cry so she wouldnt
of course i failed heck i even broke down crying during class thank god
i was sitting under the air conditioner i used that and the fact that i was
"sick" as an excuse for having red eyes and a runny nose. Shes walking
out of not just my life but our whole groups life of course she will still be
considered as part of the group but its not the same as having her there
it hurts so much and monday shall be worse as that will be the day the
day it all becomes real.

Now listening to - Maroon 5 Wake Up Call - EWW - dumb mtv

why is it the ones we love the most must leave why is it they must walk
out of your life why cant it be your enemies who leave you instead of the
ones you love it always has to be the ones you keep close to you heart
that leaves its just heartbreaking and saddening i guess you just have to
accept it and hope one day your lives will cross paths again of course what
if you dont want to accept it what then..?

Now listening to -Veronicas - Untouched

Why does god torture us so why must he send the ones we love away like
seriously it is preposterous why must we suffer just because the person
we loves parents must go just for work why cant they find work here where
they already live its just unbearable to rip to friends or "sisters" if you will
apart why must she go dont her parents see how heartbreaking it is for her
and for her friends..?

Now listening to - empire of the sun - walking on a dream

life is the worst and sometimes i think bout just giving up and letting it win
its not like anyone can stop me and now that my "sister" is going/gone how
am i supposed to smile again ive known her for FOUR YEARS dsnt tht mean
anything to her parents srsly why make her suffer by moving her then having
her have to go to a new school and make new friends just so they can have a job
why cant they get a job here its not that hard i mean COME ON PPL..?

Now listening to - empire of the sun - we are the people

anyways i have had enough of blogging i will probably write later but idk depends
if i can handle it write now so much shit has just overpowered my emotions and
without emotions i cannot write so ill write later MAYBE

but for now bye bye

Now listening to - T.I / Justin Timberlake - Dead and Gone

P.S this song FUCKING RULESSS!!!